You know,
hi everyone
and welcome to another edition of mystery School.
Our topic tonight is Dark Night of the soul and I
hope you guys are ready for a good one for tonight. Definitely
a topic. I had never actually planned on
talking about but it is seemed to
be one led by spirit in the most, you know,
incredible way something. I feel like I'm even
going through a little bit myself again. So I like to go ahead
and start up with you guys on that topic for tonight.
I'm going to share my screen with you guys.
All right. Like I said tonight's topic is Dark Night
of the Soul.
I have a feeling most people that probably watching
tonight, you know have a little bit of understanding of
what we're talking about with this. It is
something that's been spoken about for quite a long
time by many different spiritual authors and teachers and
I feel like it is a really
important part of our spiritual process.
Typically people like that people do identify this
Dark Night of the Soul as a spiritual
crisis.
You feel like you don't fit in a bit
of an identity crisis. Who am I? I don't
fit in where I'm at people. I'm I'm working with people. I'm
my friends. I'm hanging out with they don't seem to
get me. They don't seem to understand me you really start
to feel withdrawn depressed and you
really almost really challenge to the Core.
Of everything that you know, this is a an artwork
by Debbie Clark title Dark Night
of the Soul.
Just in doing a little research and looking for material for
tonight. I just saw this and it just kind of
resonated with me just out of nature, you know
kind of going Within.
definitely seems kind of depressed and and those kind of things and
I don't necessarily think it's totally bad so much
that I gathered up from this incredible
spiritual process Darkness. So,
you know changed my life and I'll get
more into my to my story a little bit later. But let's you
know, let's try identify, you know a little bit more
we're talking about here.
And the dark dinosaur is not merely having a bad
day or even weak.
Although they call it the Dark Knight should be like the dark era, you
know, the dark night is a long pervasive and
very dark experience. If you're
experiencing The Dark Night of the Soul, you will constantly carry
around within you a sense of a sense of being lost your
heart will always in some
shape or form being mourning and this is because you long
deep down to feel the presence of your soul
again, it's almost like we've come to this this place
in our Evolution where we just took a complete Wrong
Turn and that's why honestly, I
feel like a lot of times they really is better to get totally lost
in life to become extremely cold,
you know better to be hot or cold
than lukewarm get really lost in your life in this really
a lot of times where you find yourself not feeling the
emotions the feelings the kinship friendships
the spirit that
you you know really deep long for
and so, you know,
ultimately, I feel like this is
you know.
Part of the graduation process. I mean, you know if we're
You know beings that are made up of light and
dark. We certainly can't Overlook the dark.
ROM Doss The Dark
Night of the soul is when we've lost the flavor of life, but
have not yet gained the fullness of divinity.
So it is that we must whether that dark time the
period of transformation when what is familiar
has been taken away and the new richness is not yet
ours. Definitely love that. I don't
know who loan or wolf path is but when I saw these things
that I definitely resonate with Autumn, so I wouldn't share a few with a few
if you guys tonight The Seven Elements of a dark night.
Deep sense of sadness often triggered
by your life Humanity number two
an acute sense of unworthiness.
Number three constant feeling of being lost to a life
of emptiness for possessive painful
feeling of hopelessness five willpower
and self-control as we can difficult to
act six lacking interests and
find no joy and things that once excited you and seven
you crave for a loss of something a distant place
or return home. Definitely, you
know, when I was in my Dark Night of the Soul
That I felt many of these things. I definitely
felt sad. I felt so much
unworthiness. Like I I wasn't good enough
to even get out or break away from the place that
I was when it really first started to hit me. It was
almost like everything. She started to break away friendships job.
And just all seemed to just start to like not work out
anywhere. Everything was just started like breaking off and you
know not working and it was it was
really tough for me. You know, I was really depressed. I'd almost
you know, really honestly say that suicide was
contemplated many times.
And I almost really honestly
that was like the easy way out, you know that, you know,
there was so much pain and so much suffering going on and I
knew that was like the easy way out and that was you know, really?
contemplating it but
I know that that's not what I really wanted to do. That's
not what I
Didn't want to take kind of let us easy way out, but I
definitely was there, you know just seemed like, you know, I had
no real friends. I mean, I definitely I worked in
a bar at the time so
People that I hung out with and associated with and stuff and
called friends, but you know when it came down to really needing somebody
to be there for, you know, just wasn't there all the time for me and
that made it really hard and difficult. So it was
definitely a dark time for me. I learned a
lot from it and I think you
know, we should all.
Not be so.
Not be so unwilling to admit that it could
be helpful. There's a lot of people probably in it right now
that you never watch the video like this or something may think you know,
it's the end it can't get any better, but I'm
telling it it can get better the this is a process a
natural process that I feel like almost all people
have to go through at some point and their evolution
and their incarnations.
It's just it's just inevitable. So you don't don't
feel like you're the only one that you know,
only you're going through this certainly many other people gone through
it The Dark Knight. The soul is a journey into light a
journey from your Darkness into the strength and hidden resources
of your soul navigating The Dark Knight requires
internal dialogue contemplation prayer quiet
time sharing with those who understand
the profound nature of inner transformation when you're
in this interior place, you stand
at the crossroads of your power between your ego
and your soul between time and timelessness. That's
exactly what I felt. Like I
you know other than work for the most part there was
definitely time for I was just pretty much in my apartment the majority
of the time sometimes watching,
you know, just going down the rabbit hole watching YouTube videos reading
different kind of books, but I
really almost had absolutely no desire whatsoever to
really interact with anybody else though like
the hermit. It was like the hermit stage of the the
tarot readings and took tarot cars a
major Arcana.
I had I had really absolutely no no desire
whatsoever to do anything fun to enjoy life
to do anything with anybody. I feel like I didn't deserve to have
fun. You know this dark time that came upon me
was like mid. I felt worthless and I feel
like there I had nothing nothing to give good in life.
And so I was I was
in there but I'd you know, definitely was contemplating and having prayer
time and you know going within trying
to find out what is this feeling why does everything thing like this breaking
away? Why does this seem almost at the same time like
something that's happened before?
And certainly something I can't just you know
walk away from this is a very, you know
deep sense feeling that I'm feeling there's no doubt about that.
The Dark Night of the soul is a purging process that
calls us to the release all that is unhealed or
unnecessary releasing all that is in the
way of our highest good
man
It really is purging all the
stuff. You don't need. I mean the only red with only way that
you could probably feel that bad to feel that disconnected.
It is you're just connected from your
own soul again for me.
I worked I was a young kid and knew
that there are a
lot of things I didn't want to be when I grew up. I didn't want to be a police officer didn't
want to be a firefighter all those things. My parents asked me.
Do you want to be like Grandpa? Do you want to be like me and
I was like man, those are fine things. They're just not what I came here
to do and I you could name off a thousand things. I'd be like, I don't want
to do that. I don't want to do that and I knew deep down
that I would find it. I feel like someday but I didn't know what it was and even
that is like, you know, even learning in itself like even knowing
in itself has a young kid. I knew the things that didn't want to do. So to
go out in the world and to go
to college and and to find something like, you know
working at restaurants working in bars. I really enjoyed it had a lot of fun, but
I knew that I didn't want to work at a job and and at
a desk with the suit and ties. That wasn't me I couldn't do that.
I would I would not be happy at all. So but I didn't know what I want to
do. So I was looking for it.
And so
that helped me at least
go down that path to find something that I at least enjoyed for a
while. But I definitely you know,
because of the drinking, you know leads
to depression. They led me to some really dark places,
you know, I lied a lot cheated on people. I you
know, I I was just not a good person and I
was really miserable because of it and so
I became this person that you know, I wasn't super
proud of so there was a really big reason why I
wasn't happy that I was, you know didn't feel worthy
and I had done a lot of things to not
feel good. And in that moment, you know, I was being the absolute
kind of a person that I wanted to be. So it
makes a lot of sense that and not that everybody has
to go through that but I feel like the same feelings are
relevant the same, you know situations with
people can be relevant, you know, or at least they don't they're
not lining up with how you are and so
it's just not a really fulfilled relationship as a friendship.
or
as a you know, as a as a lover
or something, it's just it's just not there for you. It just seems like no matter where
you go where you find them. You're dating the
same person over and over again. And that was a huge Epiphany for
me as well in in the
darkness. So I was dating different people seemingly from
you know, different backgrounds and cultures and different things like that. But one
one day in particular one girl said the
same thing to me the last girlfriend said to me standing in
the same place in my apartment in my living room and that
changed my life because like the light bulb goes
off of my head and I instantly knew at that point.
No matter where I go. I move to another country. If I
moved another planet, you're gonna continuously find the
same kind of people Because of Who You Are
You got to get rid of these these emotions that don't don't
work. You got to get rid of this this mindset that doesn't work for
anymore because you're gonna constantly pull in the same things.
And that's when I really started to realize that you know, this this may be
something to all this and these feelings and everything. I love
this Rufus Jones quote. He said
if you have not clung to a broken piece of your old ship and
The Dark Night of the Soul your faith may not
have the sustaining power to carry you through the end of the journey and that
isn't that true like how we
For me, I'm working this bar. I didn't know what else I
could do. I didn't know who else I could be. I didn't think I was worthy of any other
job.
And so I'm going through all these things relationships are going but
my job is you know, ask for a raise. I'm a
boss like I you know, whatever you got mad at me for even asking I totally
deserved it. I did eventually get it but
You know, even if that like thing like what
am I worthy of what else? Am I gonna do? I feel like I'm hiding behind this
bar and I got this potential to be, you know,
something great, but I don't even know what that is, and I you know,
so afraid to leave it.
I'm gonna I'm gonna literally stay clung to
the broken piece of this old ship that's breaking down when I
know that this isn't what I'm supposed to be doing. I know there's something
better out for me out there for me that I could be much more happier about
but I'm definitely holding on to this
whole life for a while, you know.
But not feeling you know adequate not feeling.
That I'm worthy of anything else. So, you know the best things
at that moment that I could do is I started meditating. I
started going to yoga and
I think one of my first big breakthroughs was
going to a yoga class and I was
in the class and everything and then all of a sudden.
I mean like the certain poses and things are happening
and my heart like busted open and it just
like started speaking to me like you're gonna go to Colorado and you're
gonna go work with kids. You got to go do it and that's all it said
just move the Colorado go work with kids tonight. My heart
saying to me while my brain saying you're a
bartender in Atlanta. No one is gonna hire you to be
work with kids anywhere. And so
again my my unworthiness steps and I
don't feel like I can do it but I keep doing things to kind
of, you know move forward because I feel like I'm not
gonna you know, I got the thoughts of suicide but
I feel like I'm not gonna count myself. So what am I gonna do? I am
miserable though. I'm absolutely miserable. You know,
I realize sometimes that some of these really
pretty people that I've dated and stuff were the most miserable people
because someone looks really good doesn't mean
they're super happy or have a lot of
you know things going for them. Other than
that sometimes and so I was miserable.
Absolutely miserable and didn't know what to do with myself.
there's no coming to Consciousness without pain
people will do anything no matter how absurd in
order to avoid facing their own soul one does
not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by
making the darkness conscious
That that speaks volumes to me
as well. I love calling and
it was definitely that was a huge part of it. You know
that.
This Darkness has a place for me, too.
Right. There's a part of this journey that is totally
valid and I can't just like wish it away
or feel like I don't need this part of the
of my life or you know, how is
this gonna serve me too? What is this gonna motivate
me to do the other things won't do and that's
when I realized that suffering was the
greatest motivation probably the best motivation of
all time the probably the best thing that can
happen to you to wake up. If you're truly absolutely
miserable in your life. If you
are completely unhappy
if your life has become completely cold, you don't
want to do it anymore. So there's like
two ways out you change it or you probably do commit suicide
people probably do a lot of people do
For me, I knew that there was absolutely no way there's no
way that I can do the you know
kill myself. So I'm going to figure something
else out. And you know, I was
making the startness conscious. What am I gonna how am I gonna use this
to be a motivator? I'm in my I'm in my room
30 something. There's old, you know, I'm miserable.
Job isn't what I wanted to be anymore. I'm not happy there.
I didn't want to drink alcohol anymore people that
I'm dating. I'm dating the same person over again every
time I find someone and that's miserable. So
I stopped dating people. I stopped drinking. I'm still working at the
same place. So here I am a sober person at work, you
know not dating anyone trying to be Sullivant and
you know, that's like just a little
bit step up but you know realizing it man. I've got to get
completely out of here. I can't even I can't even stay here
and Georgia. I've got to completely move if I say
anywhere close to here. I'll always work at this job and I'll do something else but
I always use this job as a crush, so I got to get out.
I've got to completely move somewhere else.
Far far away where there's no crutch in
this where there. I'm never going to crawl back to this job and try to do it
over and over again.
And so I've got to do that.
Here's Eckhart, totally saying every spiritual
teacher points to the possibility of the end of suffering and
that that's a sexy idea for me at this moment.
I'm super suffering in my own life that I've created and I've
realized that I created every bit of it.
Now it is true that most teachers have gone have
to go to The Dark Night of Soul, although from one or
two of them. It was very very quick and maybe maybe Eckhart told
is a reason why they call it the Dark Night of the soul, but it should be dark nights.
So the dark era for me. It
was very it was a long time. It was years probably feeling this
feeling and
I exit again. I knew I had to change it.
The Dark Knight Soul comes just before Revelation when everything
is lost and all seems Darkness Ben comes
to New Life and all that is needed man. That's
what it is. There's a new life out there. And when I
did that yoga class that day, my heart opened up said I got
a milk work with kids it just it kept saying it never
stopped saying it.
I knew that that was the goal. And you
know, I was met doing meditation. I was learned about
Law of Attraction all the things. I knew that there
was another life out for me that no matter how much money
I made was so much more richer.
Then the life I was currently making that I was
able to literally sell everything that
I owned. And/or give it away. I gave a lot of a lot of
things away to my friends just because I felt like, you know,
I don't know. I wanted people to have something of him. I left or
you know, maybe it would be something of mine that would spark there,
you know their journey into becoming
who they really are and in a small way.
So I gave a lot of things away and I could have rented a
U-Haul or something. But then I just whatever fit in my car everything I could
fit in my Jeep Wrangler at the time. That's what I'm taking with me. That's
it. You know, I gave away antique desks and
stuff in my grandparents and everything, but I knew I knew
I said if I leave here and I go out somewhere else and
I go live in and follow my passion follow my heart.
I'll get all these things back and more. I knew
that and today I said in a home with a car that
was actually in the car Island and home. I didn't have back then a
partner a baby girl in the
bed upstairs all those things that make me a much more richer
of a person than I was that I ever could have had
any of those I couldn't have had those things when I used to work
back at the bar in Atlanta. I definitely didn't deserve.
Them because I didn't feel worthy of them. How could
I have them? How could I get them? If I didn't even feel worthy of them so many
times that those things, you
know even came close to fruition. I would
screw it up. So
there's so much in this.
Darkness so we need to remember
You know, don't let this little moment here
in your life completely just absolutely eats
you let it be your motivation to change
during that dark night of school dark night.
So I planned an escape I said, I'm escaping from
this. I'm escaping from this life from these feelings
and I'm gonna create a brand new
life. I'm gonna you know take this as the seed going into
the dark dirt and I'm gonna be planted in and I'm gonna
grow something new wherever I go when I'm gonna Thrive and I
knew that but there were other things in there too. I mean
so many realizations that I don't think could have
happened any other way some, you know, a lot of people talk about the soul,
you know, like the soul family and
um your soulmates and stuff I learned in that
dark night soul that even my enemies where my
soulmates and you know, just a short
story. Like there are people that I hated back
then I had a lot of hate in my life. I had a
lot of grudges that I kept against people. I did find out
a yoga class one day and a back back bend all the sudden.
I let go of a ton of
what do you call it pent aggression?
Holding on to anger with somebody I did
a backbend one day all of a sudden it just released and I knew that there
were certain people that I had held grudges against them and it
caused me physical pain in my back and then all sudden
it was gone.
But I knew that.
Enemies were soulmates as well. The people that I that I was
there with and and living with and hanging out with that.
I hated I tried to get rid of that ball one day and I would
turn around the next day. They were right there hanging out. Somebody else next they
hang out. Somebody else tell people don't hang out with that person
don't do this and you know, and and next thing,
you know, one day this guy walks in I had thrown him
out at the bar literally one time and I thought that
you know, he would never come back sure enough. He always came back and I
He came in one day at five o'clock. I was the only person there setting
up and he's just wanted to talk to me and I was like, all right, and it
was just that overwhelming feeling you know, God was
like just listen to him today and I was like, alright, we're
just gonna we're gonna listen I'm gonna talk to you.
Hear what you have to say and they're doing my spiritual work. And so,
you know, here it is, you know, I'm forgiven
myself. I'll forgive you. Let's go.
And as soon as I did that really tried to hear this
guy, I realized within five or ten minutes. We were talking about Tesla free
energy aliens UFOs, and I'm like dang dude
now, you know about any of this stuff. He's like man, I got I got DVDs CDs
full of that stuff you can use for your videos and
stuff and I was like man, that'd be great. And this
guy became like my biggest fan. He shared stuff on Facebook. He
shared my stuff. He always liked everything
I put on there. He was like the biggest fan and I was his biggest
fan. And anyway, so after we made up and I
wouldn't go talk to my boss and I was like, you know made up with Key West and he
said I can't believe you ever hold a grudge again that guys just
like you more than anybody else. I know and I was just like wow.
Wow, more like me than anybody's
like yeah, y'all talk about the same thing all the time all the
same stuff and and I realized it was me that
that projected things that I didn't like about myself
onto him that I didn't they didn't say that
it was me. It was Key West it was this other person. It was
this other guy.
That he's the guy don't like it's not
myself, but it was really it was really myself that it didn't like and I
didn't forgive and so I realize at that point I had
probably incarnated with this guy over and over and over again hated this
dude, and hey and love are just the extremes
of emotion.
And you can flip them like hey, it's like love and reverse.
And as soon as we did that as soon as I heard him out, that's exactly
what happened. And I never had any negative feel until I'm ever
again. And so there's so many things that
you can learn the same thing with the girls. I dated the
same girl over and over again. There were
things that I found, you know practices yoga meditation monatomic gold
where I had I was just like had a lot of extra cash.
So I would take pounds of that stuff and eat it and drink it
have huge revelations in my house.
Spiritual Concepts that I
you know, like I used to give people money all the
time.
On my way home. I Bud walk home from work three or
four five in the morning and it'll be like 10 homeless people
I search for money. I always get every single one up some five ten
bucks. Whatever.
And I always feel good about that. But all my other friends are
always like don't give them money Jacob. They're gonna go buy drugs and they're gonna buy
this and
They weren't wrong. So I was like, okay, maybe I shouldn't get
people money at 5 o'clock in the morning. And so I felt weird about
it. So I stopped doing it.
And I told him all why wouldn't I do it? Please don't ask
me and it would probably like five months and no one asked me and
I didn't even think about it and it was just kind of a weird situation where
every time I walked almost no one ever asked me.
and but I was doing my work was doing my meditation was doing
my my yoga and you know going to
spiritual places already and
one day there's a couple came up to me asking me for
money so they could get some some burgers from Checkers. And I
and I really like them Reggie and Zeta. They're a
beautiful people. They actually refer to themselves as Home Free
instead of homeless, which I kind of admired. They didn't
have the troubles have had at homes and I was like, okay, I
see that and they would do anything for me that I asked him to so
Take out trash they come in the house and take out trash whatever and so
I gave him 20 bucks and I hugged him
and I told him I loved him. I cared about them and here's some more money for it
and get something in the morning some breakfast and I went
to my house and and I went to bed and woke up the next morning and as soon
as I did.
I got a phone call from my next girlfriend looking to buy
a rock band thing rock band the guitars
that everything the drums that I had
tried to sell on Facebook ever else never got one by and at
that moment we hadn't used it for months. And so I
would you know, I would have gave it to him for practically free 20
bucks. There's all that she's like, okay, so calling in
a second.
and so she calls me and
They offered me $200 for it and just
because I know what you got they already told me so, you
know, we'll bring it over in just a few minutes. I was like, okay great. I got
off the phone and the light bulb went off of my head and I
realized $200 is 10 fold of that twenty
dollars. I gave to regen say in a way
that never actually gave him money for I gave
it with no conditions to it totally grateful to
have and give it to them and that light will goes off and I
said that's how you feed five thousand people with two fish and through those of bread
and I was like, wow, you can really amplify all
kinds of stuff if it really were in that kind of state. So
this dark period brought me revelation after
Revelation and once I
really started to embrace it once I really started to realize
it, you know, there's some there's a reason for this there's this
the moment in my life that I really need to
to embrace even before I get
to Colorado or wherever else, you know, go ahead
and start embrace it now when I did I really I really did have started have
pretty crazy things like that happen and here
is the to the tower card from the
Toro deck. It's you know, major Arcana card the
number 16
I believe this pretty much be dark night
of the Soul card. This is the the Natural Evolution the
natural process that this major Arcana
that explains, you know, here it
is two people jumping out of this, you know tall tower on
a mountain.
It almost see that as like ego and it's
showing the crowns right and one person
has Crown I kind of feel like that's saying these people are no
matter who you are.
If you're a king or Prince or you know someone with
a lot of money or this or that we're all gonna go through the states, we're
all gonna hit this, you know, lightning bolt
of Enlightenment that's going
to come hit our nice little tower all built
up tall and high and it's high place.
That this you know that both gonna hit us all that that light's
gonna come in no matter how far we try
to build it up. I mean you look at someone like Will Smith,
you know just gonna use them as a great example. Everybody likes
Will Smith and then he did what he
did and all the sudden man is he not
does not because you're not describe probably
what he's going through as a Darkness all he's he's, you know,
made it to the top of the mountain. He slabs
Chris Rock and now seems like everyone hates him. He can't
you know, things are working out for him. But I say, it's not bad
good good for him. What a great ego check. What
a great moment in his life to really become the person that he
wants to be so I don't again. I don't see this is
like wishing negative on somebody. This is a great part to be
at in your life. And it's again, it's knocking that
Crown off the top.
Um, you know, this is this is it the major
Arcon of the tire upright upheaval lack of
security lack of safety security
and structure danger crisis destruction elimination unforeseen
change.
A time for restructure a destructive event
that was due to happen in time again upheaval
the rugby and
pull beneath your feet a time for instruction. Yeah,
16 change Ops and determination A Spiritual Awakening.
Sudden Change and shifts Revelations change for
your highest good divine intervention, man, all that when you really
think about it's good. It's great. That's a good thing.
You know, you can't sit up there and Ivory Tower
all day, you know and not be connected to Mother
Earth connected to other things you're gonna
get knocked out of there.
And then another man another great.
place where I found the Dark Night of Soul, basically
I watched Greg brayden's seven to
seeing mysteries of self. The scenes
were basically a very secret spiritual
sack that even they say that Jesus.
That he that he taught with them and he
learned that their ways with them.
and basically what the
seven is seeing mirrors are is that
let's all go to the first one mystery of the first mirror the
mirror of the moment what how you are in this
moment is, you know can be the people that you
meet the places that you work and when you go to the
grocery store, whatever you're going out and you do in the world is what
you're kind of moment to moment receiving back.
It's almost like quantum physics. This is how the universe
decodes itself through the outside world because
of your inside desires who you are really number
two, the mirror of that which
is Judge what you judge so you may
not be someone who steals but if you're someone who excuse
me, if you're someone who gets really
angry and is really triggered by people who
steal
that could lead you to have people steal from
you.
That's literally what it's saying. So not that you steal. So you're stolen from
that's definitely something that can happen with the first mirror, but just
being get a really huge charge on people who do that
kind of stuff you can guarantee. That's what's gonna happen to
you number three.
The mirror of that which is lost given away or taken away or
not trying to go through all these on a lot of debt, but it's so good. I
encourage all of you guys to go. If you haven't watched Greg brayden's
seven has seen
mirrors you go go watch it and and
it's really long and I probably watched it a hundred
times and I just find so much and every time but
What you lose as a kid, which you give away with taking
away your spunk your spirit you're often
looking for that. If you've lost something like that in your
in your life as a child you you trying to find it in
others, you know, the actroverts personality bubbly personality
something that you had as a kid probably and you've
lost it and they're trying to find it number four the most
forgotten love, you know, your love life and everything the
things that you've lost but even gonna be your parents, but number five the
Mary of the father and the mother
You know what?
What your mother and father literally?
Mirror your relationship to the Divine the Divine
masculine divine feminine.
The number six here. It is
mirror of the quest in the darkness number six is literally
The Dark Night of the Soul number seven is the mirror of
yourself perception. So as we go out in the world the places
that we go the places that we shop at the places
that you work no matter where you go, you
will constantly pull mirrors of
yourself through other people that you meet
situations circumstances and events.
So again number six in UIC
my most feared aspects of self-worth trust
abandonment and loneliness and aloneness Flash
moments leading to life-changing insights. So
again, this is you know, all these things. It's
like looking at the scariest thing that you can possibly imagine and
learning something and really
getting some from it because that too even the
scariest things in our life can bring forth the greatest
change in us and that's what they're gonna do. Literally that's what
it's there for the six mayor reflects
back to us to Quest for Darkness or what is often referred
to as Darkness Soul. This is when we meet our greatest
challenges our greatest fears and have gathered the
tools and understandings in our life to confront them. God never
gives us more than we can handle and we have a choice and
every experience to greet it as a powerful manifest
State manifestate manifesting. God.
God is our victim. I don't want
to be a victim anymore man. I don't want to have this victim.
Aldi and that someone has to come save me man
you are at your rock bottom. If you are a victim
of your life that someone else is always doing making you late. Somebody
else is always making you feel miserable. No one
can make me feel miserable.
I allow you to make me feel miserable, but
you can't make me do it unless I allow you to do
it.
How powerless are when we say things like that you made me
do that. You made me feel like that. Oh my God that so manipulating.
but it's you know, it is true that
we are we allow people do that. And if you become a
god a goddess instead of a victim you realize I create all
this I'm responsible for I need to say myself.
And all this stuff when it comes down to it is really part
of our hero's journey. Joseph Campbell
came up with this. This isn't like this is like every movie that
you see that you that really speaks archetypes
to us. Right when you watch superhero movies
and Star Wars and all those things. These are
those are great classic examples of the
heroes Journey.
And the first you got just a you know a person
or every day life and then there's some kind of Call to
Adventure some kind of Supernatural Aid or you
know, somebody comes along and kind of pushes you
off or someone dies or something. This is all the know the
top part of that's the known the known part of reality and then
all sudden you got to go through
The the challenges and you got
to meet helpers and mentors and then down at the bottom is the
Revelation the abyss the death and rebirth. That's the
Dark Knight of soul.
This is a journey from light into dark back to light
again. That's exactly what life is
all about. There's a heaven flow and balance of
light and dark not that we're gonna transmute this Darkness
until I like it. It's valid it's totally necessary
as well. We need to really embrace
the fact that that darkness is here to stay. We're probably
gonna go through many different types of darkness's Soul
now it doesn't have to be this completely breakdown
of all the things that you have but there are certain aspects that's
gonna break down your ego to to have it
have a death of that to read to rebirth and rebuild a new
one. So you think you can transform and
you can atonement The Awakening and then return
back with the knowledge and there's
all kinds of
different parts of this call to
you know in the hero's journey.
That that was just the broad skeleton of it.
There's a lot of stuff that goes in there as well. But the
greatest movies that you watch all have this stuff in
there all had these these different parts of it. If
you want to watch a great movie that can help explain this finding Joe
one of the best movies I've ever seen I probably watched it
a hundred times just so powerful and how
it describes exactly like they're here
Rose Journey each of us our own hero. And
so when we see those Heroes go through those trials into relations,
I mean, the best movies are all about the fact that someone has
to face something really dark and when they
you know, and it seems hopeless and terrible at
the time, but after they come over it or after they, you
know get through it.
You know how much better they are for how much they've grown
how much more powerful they are because they went through this dark Deep
thing, you know,
and it's all about facing yourself. Even the story of
Star Wars when Luke has the dream he cuts
off, you know cuts off Darth Vader's head with the lightsaber and
he looks at his head and it's his
face inside Darth Vader's it's you
that you're fighting
right
and we have to become the hero of our own Journey. But yeah,
we watch these Heroes on television. We watch these
hero we read about them in books and in it
calls to us right calls us an excites us
because it's like it's like
You're subconsciousness and man it's time for you to do that time
for you to be that and we don't really get
the point and some out I feel like it almost kind of.
synthetically
does it for us a little bit and so
then we don't go out and we don't hear over on life because we've watched it
on TV. So many times it almost like kind of satisfies
this internally that we don't actually have
to go do it. So sometimes good to turn
TV off and become the hero of your own Journey instead of watching on
TV all the time.
And again, so I told you that this is a journey of
light in the dark.
That the dart gives birth to the light
the light gives birth to the dark. This is
the two-dimensional figure.
Of a Taurus, if you know what a Taurus is where you have
the inner workers of like an apple or orange or
the magnetosphere around the planet where the center comes
up and out and down again and back up again,
and it's just free flowing.
Circuit of energy to tell stars move throughout
the Galaxy. It's
It's more than just this little symbol of light and dark. This
is this is a this is a process of the
universe that I think is it's a
symbol for us to understand the yin. Yang. The symbol
of Harmony reminds us that life is a balancing
act and most fulfilling when we learn to embrace. It's dualities.
So important, right? Like
we have to realize like it's not something to
be afraid of it's not something to walk away
from to get away from to not accept that
darkness is there for a reason one of
the revelations that I had in Atlanta before I moved out here was the fact that
I was meditating I was you know laying in
my bed and just totally relaxed and to come
into all that is and asking for huge Enlightenment
ideas to come
through me and I saw the universe and
I saw what was like a black hole to me and I saw
light swirling around into
it.
And it was being pulled into this dark hole.
Were eventually it was birthed out and it
was swirling out light again and that I realized oh man, that's the
center of the Galaxy the center of the Galaxy is a black hole and it's
pouring out this, you know, spiral of
light. That's the Galaxy and I was like, that's me, too.
I'm a black hole because I had realized at a
point like I'm a black hole of energy. I'm I'm sucking in all
these things until I finally sucked in something that was worthy yoga
meditation, you know, this monatomic gold
meaningful relationships all these things as
a man. There's things that are actually worth something besides money sex and
drugs and things that I've been trying to suck down forever. It hadn't done
anything for me.
So anyways it you know, I realize that that
was really important. There is something about the slide in the dark
to not just be lightworkers to not just be you know,
I'm gonna live in the light Positive Vibes only man.
You people are still gonna die. You're still gonna cry, you know,
I mean, they are methods of
Madness that that are relevant,
you know, like people say we gotta get rid of bullies a bully is
totally relevant to someone who bullies himself.
To someone who doesn't love themselves.
That's what you need in your life as a bully a physical bully. You
don't you internally ability to
yourself. You hate yourself bullies don't go on the playgrounds looking
for healthy people. They look for the person who's already internal dialect
is how much they hate themselves or how much they bullet themselves.
So here it is to manifesting in the physical form of
bully for you to learn for herself in a
bully doesn't like himself that much either right. He has a her other people to
make himself feel better.
So it's all relevant. It's like this
Cosmic dance. So we have to identify and know in the universe
is a perfect place and everything's getting just exactly how it's supposed
to be done.
And realize man it is just darkness is necessary. How can
I be substantial? If I do not cast a shadow? I
must have a dark side if I am to be made whole.
And accepting that dark side is part of it.
So when you finally learn to accept your Shadow Self, I am
perfect whole complete just as I am even Scouts
for it could do it, right?
If Skeletor working alone, so I feel like we all can
is so important no matter who we've been
no matter where we've been no matter what we've done.
You can forgive yourself and learn to realize like that too
was it was a definitely needed period in
my life.
For me to be able to learn how to balance the light
in the dark in my own life.
To get not give responsibility over anybody else take total
responsibility for yourself and learn how to balance it,
you know creation and destruction are
basically the same thing.
light and dark hot and cold
They're just the extremes of the same thing and we
need to realize that we can balance these things within ourselves.
I love this quote too by Star Wars. There's
so much so much great archetype and Star Wars and so much truth to
be honest. The force is not a power you have it's not
about lifting rocks. It's the energy between all things attention
a balance that binds the
universe together.
It's a narrow path a narrow gate.
And we just have to go through it. So.
It's the cave that we fear the most the things that
scare us the most that were terrified to do. I was
terrified of my height. So I started jumping out
of airplanes. I started rock climbing.
and in facing my fears is when
I started to really literally become free realizing that
you know that darkness that fear was
something that
Boiled up to me that I realized I had to do this it gave
me that insight to realize like man, you're never
going to be Fleet if you don't do it and I had opportunities that
came up and I was like, okay, I'm gonna jump out of airplanes. I'm gonna rock climbing. I
was actually good at those things, especially rock climbing.
They can't really be good at jump in an airplane too much. Yeah, you
just jump back up, but I
was good at it and I didn't realize like how good I could be at something. I
was like, wow, I'm pretty good at something. I'm actually was terrified to
do it first.
But that the treasure that we're seeking the the
freedom the the Vigor of
life that is in these caves of
that were so afraid to enter go in them go find
whatever scares you the most go do it. That's your indication that
you need to go do it and when we expose ourselves to
our deepest fear after that, we're totally free.
The light can help you find that the darkness can help you find that but
regardless when we expose ourselves to our fear, we're free we
take that fear out of us and we look at a straight in the face and no
longer keeps us from being who
we truly are meant to be so just like snakes We Can
Shed our skin we shed our past over and over again.
This is something that has to happen. You just have to
you know not be so stuck and and those
dark nights and still help you realize like you can cling
to that old part of your ship.
And that'll help you but after that this periods
come back again. You don't need to anymore. Just keep
moving forward and don't let it get to you.
And so I feel like this is where all this leads to.
Accepting the lighted art leads to Freedom.
Totally said this at true freedom and the
end of suffering is living in such a way as if
you completely chose and whatever you feel or experience
at this moment. This inner alignment with
now is the end of suffering is suffering
really necessary. Yes, and no if
you had not suffered as you have there would
be no debt to you as a human being no humility. No
compassion.
That's so true, man. How much suffering game led
to my so much compassion for others?
It's what it's really why I do what I do today. I
work with autistic kids and adults.
Suffering cracks open the shell of ego
and then comes to a point when it has served its purpose
suffering is necessary Until you realize it's
unnecessary.
Again, I tell you man, that's suffering.
is what woke me up the most and that dark
night its soul is where I suffered the most so I
have every
Everything to give to that dark night of soul
that that's where I became who I am now, you know, it's not not
because I moved to Colorado it was all because of that that gave me the reason
to go do it.
To be completely miserable man. What a great thing to
be completely miserable to completely cold in your life.
So when we heal ourselves, we Heal the World when we
save ourselves we saved the world. This is
this is so important man. Everybody wants
to change the world. That's what God Said. You want to change the world first change
yourself.
Right when we change ourselves, we are change the
world because you're part of it. You're not separate from it. You are
part of it just like, you know, the trees and the grass and
the stars and we may seem small and
that's good too to realize, you know, be humble
and and realize, you know humility and
that
you're just as great as any star or any planet
or anything that ever has been or any person that's ever
come or will come.
We just have to realize that so when we really work on ourselves when
we heal ourselves, we love ourselves. We Heal the World we love the
world. It's so important.
because the Earth
has had its own Dark Night of the soul and this
painting right here really simplifies the most to me.
back
here
2000 years ago
when we crucified our own Christ
and and we did not know.
Who we really were.
And we've gone down a dark dark past since then a Dark
Night of the Soul. It's been just a
lot of nights the dark errands, so.
We lost who we were.
We've got to a place for many of us and no longer happy with
the way things are going.
Power spirituality is going how spending money
the way we're spending money for different things perpetuating War.
destroying our forest
the Earth has gone through a very very dark night of soul,
but we coming out of it.
We're coming out of it. We're coming out to a very incredible beautiful place.
But we've got to heal ourselves first to help heal
this planet and I think that's totally important. It's really
relevant right now.
To realize like we're going through our little dark night. So we've
gone through our dark night. So the Earth has to and she's
about to give birth to a whole new Spiritual Awakening.
of Life of humans of
how we're doing things
man, I I want to even talk
about it some more but at this point I feel like
My imagination doesn't even cut it to probably
what we'll see, you know, some people say hundred times
a thousand times more harmonious now.
Regardless the darkness that we've gone through. There's
no doubt for me that we're about to go through very well lit time
on this planet. So do your work.
Hear yourself to heal the planet. Love yourself.
have some Grace realize this this too shall pass
and this moment is something super important to be here now
for and
with that said
we can paint and create a new world.
alongside our mother earth
That's more harmonious more beautiful greater than
we've seen in a long time.
That's what I'm here for and I
think I know most people on this this talk tonight. Join
us the people who watch this on YouTube later on since you
work television on Rumble, whatever it is.
There's a reason why you found this video while you're on this
this cast tonight.
We're all moving towards that same place and we
can be thankful for our Dark Nights of the Soul. So important
that you know, we give
it validity that we help the others through it. Right if
you've been through anything like this to find other
people and to lift them up and to let
them know man how much I got out of this. It's so important. I honestly
feel like I let some people down by not
talking about this sooner by not
talk about topics like this sooner sometimes because I know
a lot of people have gone through and a lot of people going through it. I do
feel like for myself. I've got it. I got a dark time going right
now. Not anywhere to the extent that was back back in
Atlanta in those days.
Was something inside of me is, you know, really feeling some darkness
in there some some teaching and that and that
realm in that way.
And so I'm listening and so tonight. This was totally inspired
by Spirit to give you guys to talk about
something. I feel like it's really important that maybe we don't talk
about enough and I wanted to give it that validation tonight
that it definitely deserves. So
Thank you guys for being here tonight.
I am totally incredibly grateful.
To each and every single one of you for being here.
I'm trying to take my share off real quick.
Help stop sharing. Here we go.
And I'm incredibly grateful
everyone. If you're being a snipe everyone who watched this video later, please share
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anybody who's going to something like this in this video talk soon.
Let them know your experiences, you know,
we're definitely going through a larger Darkness. So what the plan as
well it's imperative that we help every single person out. That
would probably can't it's all
about love and it's all about helping and serving each other.
You know, there is no greater person on this planet that
one that serves other people. I totally believe that so thank
you guys for coming. I appreciate everything one of you
I'm so absolutely thankful for this moment
in time this life that I've been given, you know,
I promised you the best with it I've got
I love and and I see the Divinity in
every single person that's here with us tonight. And every
single person is on the planet with us. No matter who they think
they are what they think about themselves. I know
these every single person is God In the Flesh and I
thank you guys all time for being here.