Changing Course
Nothing ever stays the same, and I am birthing yet another facet of moi. This is a me that delves back inward. Since the c19 fiasco began, I took a deep dive for a loooong while into waking others up in the general public kind of way. Facebook really empowered that voice for me. But lately it’s not feeling aligned with my mission any longer. I had really felt that mission for so long, too! But I can’t justify staying identified with something that is no longer feeling well suited to my starseed mission.
The outside world hopefully is supported by others who pick up such missions while I take leave of my old one. I simply trust that the universe has it covered. I’m going within to reconnect and find a deeper connection to source, that is my re”new”ed mission.
For me this means meditations as often as I naturally feel inclined. I’m not on any “schedules”. I don’t find that schedules work well for me. When I feel inspired, is when it’s best for me to sit and make my connection even deeper. This perspective helps me keep things fresh and not feel like a “have-to”. It’s a “want-to”!
Once upon a time, I was very regulated in my approach to meditation. I meditated twice daily at sunrise and sunset, ate vegetarian, did a regular yoga practice and attended Satsangs with the group who taught these practices to me. I even spent some time at an ashram in India. Obviously, I got away from it, and from them… not due to any, drama… just due to my own diverging path. I have reverence for the practices I was taught, but also respect for “where I am” right now.
Back from the trenches of the rest of the world, I feel drawn back towards some of those practices. But I am currently being careful not to induce any burnout in my perspective. I know myself and I know I can go hard and fast into things and that leads to burnout and inconsistency on my part. So right now, I am giving myself permission to be inconsistent in some important-to-me ways. Such as… I am not meditating at any particular time of day. When I find a half hour, I turn off the volume on my PC and the ringer on my phone and sit in meditation. There’s no need to do it at sunrise or twice a day… nothing stringent or rules-based. If I feel inspired at some point to fast-track my practice, I know what other options I can employ to do that. But for now, I am simply pleased with the slight turn-around of energies that random meditations providing. That’s enough for now.
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Hi Theresa, this really resonates with me. I was also very angry and watching all the Corona drama playing out and I was trying to wake others who were not ready to be woken. Now I feel the need to just work on myself and get the energy up as my main focus. Many many mainstream people are now waking to the control system and they need the higher energy to keep them strong. I would not be a very effective protester/online truthteller but I am really good at increasing others energy. So I will do my job and fully support those who will fight/protest. We all have a part to play. We got this x
I think we probably did wake more people than we could know. So many people are afraid to voice their true opinions for fear of being beaten back by the naysayers. So I feel like we did do our jobs, so to speak, even if we don’t get to see all the evidence of it. Regardless, I don’t want to live in that anger any more. I’m tired of defending common sense. I will always stand up for freedoms, but in a more quiet way now. Anchoring into the light is what *I* need, and ultimately what we all need for a better tomorrow. Being anchored in that light IS a help to others who continue the fight on the ground level. If I didn’t believe that, I couldn’t let go of trying to help them see the reality better. We CAN do this! You are so right!
Yes for sure, and more are awakening than ever before x